The things you do to me...

Now the night is here and I am left with my thoughts alone , 

you flash before my eyes , in the way that I have known. 

I sheepishly smile at you while my heart skips a beat, 

it's you I had been waiting for,been longing all day to meet. 

It's our time of the night , and you by me , such a wonderful sight! 

If this was my forever I would want it to be this way , 

with you and I struggling for better ways, for things to say. 

For ,'I love you' possibly cannot sum up, there's so much more to it I swear , 

you send a chill down my spine and you do that without even a glare. 

Things you do to me , if only I could explain, 

you are my sanity and the reason why I am not the same. 

I know I haven't met you but what if I tell you that I have known you like I have known the moon, 

aware of your existence and beauty , knowing that I will reach you soon. 

I have heard you in the quiet of the night , many a time you have whispered in the dim light, 

you have kissed me gently and softly so , have read me close with those eyes of doe, 

we have danced together to many a song both new and old, 

have held each other close enough during those long nights of cold. 

You have held my hand when I stepped back , together we worked over the things we lacked. 

We have had our fights and shed our tears , hand in hand , we overcame all our fears. 

Had laughed so hard till our stomachs ached , had had those burnt cakes we baked. 

Yes , you have been a part of me all this while , every step, every mile. I

have felt your touch in the warmth of the sun , 

have heard you talk when I could hear none. 

I have seen you smile in my reflection each day , 

you came like a cool breeze in the month of may. 

I have lived you each day and will live you forever, if I may. 

For we have been time travellers , both you and I , 

we dwell in each other and that's no lie. 

I know I can't make you stay but I have things to tell , so let me say. 

These few lines don't say much , and I have no other way as such , 

wish I could but let you see , oh the things you do to me , the things you do to me....

Tum

Lambi tanha raaton mein jab yaad ban aate ho tum ,

yun hi karwat badal badal kuch khud mein ro lete hain hum. 

Ba dastoor,khayaalon me, jo dastak de uthte ho tum, 

tumhein khaabon mein tassavur kar , kuch phir se jee lete hain hum. 

Jab din ki roshni mein, kuch dhundhla se jaate ho tum , 

tasveer tumhaari seene se laga, thoda sisak lete hain hum. 

Har kamre se tumhaari khusboo aati hai , 

har lamha mujhe woh chhed jaati hai . 

Un kamron mein baith kabhi, 

dil halka kar lete hain hum. 

Jab ban hansi goonjh uthte ho tum, 

sath tumhaare muskura kar khud mein khush ho lete hain hum.

Is khaalipan mein bhi saath har pal hote ho tum, 

aur isi baat pe thoda khud mein sanwar lete hain hum. 

Har haseen raat tumhaara jaadu jaga jaati hai , 

har unkahi baat mujhe raundhti tadpa jaati hai.

Aaine mein , meri har din ki mulaquaat ho tum , 

mere mausam , mere din raat ho tum. 

Paas ho itna phir bhi kitne door ho tum, 

kal tak toh mere apne the ,aaj jaane kaun ho tum. 

Waqt ne kiya humpe, yeh kaisa haseen sitam, 

saath ho kar bhi jo paas nahin, woh shaqs nikle tum.

Woh

Woh jo har soch mein hai, 

ek dabi si aas sahi, 

ghumshuda kahin hazaaron mein hai ,

aur nazar ke paas nahin...

milti hoon roz usse ,

karti hoon baate saari unkahi, 

phir dhoondhti phirti ho har pal use , 

kuch apna sa hai woh ajnabi....

A Daughter's note to her Hero.

Bejaan is dil ko dhadhkann di aap ne,

Tutlaati is zubaan ko awaaz di aap ne,

Sehmein mere kadmon ko ,

chalna sikhaaya aapne aur jo thak ke haar gaye kadam toh aaghosh mein bhar liya aap ne.

Haanth thaam mera , jeena sikhaaya aapne , 

jab chalak uthein ashq mere, toh poonch unhein hansna bhi sikhaaya aap ne. 

Tiflana si mere khwaahishon ko udaan diya aap ne ,

bhool ghalatiyan saari gehwaare mein choom liya aapne. 

Unsuni is kahaani ko aagaaz diya aapne , 

kal tak toh main kuch na thi , mere aaj ko ek naam diya aapne. 

Zindagi ke zakhm jab hare ban tadpaate the , 

tab raahat ki saans liye aap marham ban aate the. 

Jab raakh ho uthte the umeed ke saare diye, 

tab us raakh mein dabi si aag bane aap sulag kar aate the. 

Khud takleefein jhel saari mere chehre pe kabhi ek shikan na diya, 

bhool apna wajood , meri har chhoti-badi zidd ko aapne hi poora kiya..

yun kehne ko toh tamaan baatein hain par bayan kar sakooun main ,aise kai alfaaz nahin.... 

Mera wajood hai aapse , 

Mera sab kuch hi hai aap se ....

Azal se toh main ek kora kagaz thi ,

aur aaj main jo khud mein ek kitaab hoon ,woh bhi aap se.

Waqt kya kehta hai..

Waqt Ka bhi ajab hisaab hai,
Kabhi Kat ta nahin toh kabhi tham ta nahin,
Par waqt hameshan hi badalta hai, jo aaj hai, is pal hai,

Woh Kal kahan yun rehta hai ...

Waqt toh mano jharnon sa, 
baha ja raha hai yeh kehta hua,

Ki rok lo us lamhe ko, 

jo abhi tumhaara hai,samaet lo us apne ko jo be baank awaara 

hai, daaman se baandh lo use tum, sarak ke yun jaane na do, 

baahon mein kas lo aaj usse, 
yun toot ke bikhar jaane na do, 

saanson mein basa lo is quadar
 ki saans tumhaari toh dhadhkan uski ho, 

kar lo quaid aankhon mein yun ki
 jo khwaab tumhaare, toh nazar uski ho, 

pighal jaao ek doosre mein yun 
ki Koi faaslein na rahein,

fanaa ho jaao ek doosre mein yun 
ki silsilein aur koi baaki na rahein...

Jab tere baare mein sochti hoon..

Tere baare mein jab sochti hoon toh Khud ke aur kareeb aa jaati hoon, 
Tu ghair sahi par apna sa mujhe kuch lagta hai, 

Tu haqueekat sahi par sapna sa mujhe kuch lagta hai,

Tu soch meri, tu armaan mera, 

Tu dhundhla dhundhla sa khwaab mera,

Tu Kal bhi tha aur aaj bhi hai, tu har pal mere saath bhi hai, 

Tu rooh ki tarah mujhmein samaaya hai, tera aks mera hum saaya hai,

Aankhon ki talaash bhi tu,sukooun bhi tu,

Uljhi suljhi har soch bhi tu,aagaaz bhi tu, anjaam bhi tu...

Haanthon mein chalakta jaam sa tu,

Madham madham si shaam sa tu, 

Sehmi si meri zindagi mein, tu udaan meri pehchaan meri, 

Be matlab si is kahaani mein, tu dhoop meri tu chaauvn meri, 

Jab aaine mein Khud ko dekhti hoon, toh Khud ki jagah tujhe paati hoon,

aur mujhmein tujhe dekh, kuch darr seham si jaati hoon, 

Mera toh mujhmein kuch raha hi nahin,

Tu Koi aur hi sahi par Kyun anjaana nahin,Kyun tujhko Khud mein paati hoon, 

Kyun bin tere, main taras si jaati hoon,Tujhe to ilm bhi nahin ki main jab bhi tere baare mein sochti hoon, toh Khud ke aur Kareeb aa jaati hoon...

Kya ho tum..

Tumhaare se Kya ghila karooun, 

shikaayatein karooun bhi toh Kya karooun. 

Khamoshi Ka aalam tumhein raas nahin, 

aas ho meri par ,paas nahin. 

Tum se din hotein hain aur tum se hi raatein, 

aur matlab, be matlab ki, bachkaani har baatein...

hoton ki hansi bhi tum se hi aur aankhon ki nammi bhi tum se hi, 

dil ki har khwahish bhi tum se hi aur zindagi ki har Kami bhi tum se hi..

door sahi par dil ke paas ho tum, 

shayad Isiliye kuch khaas ho tum.

Tanhaan raatoon ki soch ho tum, 

hazaaron ki hujoom mein jo yaad aaye woh shaks ho tum. 

Kaise bayaan karooun ki dil ab tak jo na sun saka tha, 

woh aawaaz ho tum. 

Par har kisi ko kahan muquammal jahan milta hai,

jab par katarne ki jurrat rakhte ho tum, 

toh udaan bharne ki khwaahish, main karooun bhi toh Kaise...

Ek dost aisa bhi tha..

Hazaaron ki bheed mein har insaan tanhaa hai, 

kitne thokar khaaye par dil aaj bhi nadaan hai...

Aaj bhi ghum mera humsaaya hai, 

lo aaj phir dil ro aaya hai, Aaj bhi roshni chubhti hai, 

dil ke kisi kone se ek aah nikalti hai. 

Badi aasaani se woh keh gaye ki hum samajh nahin paaye, 

kis zubaan se bayan karooun ki hum khamosh Kya seh gaye...

Yun toh tanha si thi zindagi par ab zyaada tanha lagegi, 

sab kuch toh hoga bas ek aap ki kami khalegi. 

Hum toh ghum ke aashiq hain, 

humein toh ghum ki latt hai. 

Ek ajab sa sukooun hai is dard mein ek ajab sa nasha hai iski chubhan mein..

Phir bhi ae dost, dua karte hain ki ghum se tera koi naata na ho,

jo ghum ki fiza chale to rukh badal dena meri taraf aur samjh lena ki jaise tum ne mujhe choo liya...

Haal-e-dil.

Ghum-e-tanhaai Ka aalam tumhein bataaun toh bataaun Kaise,
Apni kashmakash se tumhein mukhatib karaaun toh karaaun Kaise, 
Woh kehta hai ki mere seene mein dil nahin hai, 
Use uske aashiyaane Ka pata bataaun toh bataaun Kaise

A night to remember...

Lying down on my bed, trying to get some sleep,

I let my thoughts wander, till they reach to you, rooting deep.

And there you were, amidst  a million different things, 

staring straight into me, with that lopsided grin. 

Ah, that calm on your face and that familiar gaze,

with one look at me, all the pain it erased. 

I couldn't help but smile,

and stood there admiring you, for a while,

You reached out your hand and I held onto it tight, 

it felt like nothing before,like there was nothing I couldn't fight. 

You placed me near and whispered in my ear, 

take me my love, it's for you that I wait here. 

I run my fingers through your hair, drinking you all in, 

up to the very brim, leaving absolutely nothing and for none to share. 

You kissed me gently, my hearts strings you caressed, 

and it felt like you owned me, like it were me you already possessed. 

The world went all quiet and time stood still, 

my heart went all crazy with the gush of blood ,that went for the kill. 

With "Chasing cars" playing on the background, 

you make me lie close to you, 

with our heart's in sync, afraid to even blink, 

we lay there,lost together, not wanting to be found. 

Hand in hand, breathing the same air, 

we stare at the starry sky, growing more in love, growing more in care. 

The stars shine with all their might,

it makes me believe that, tonight, just for us, they are this bright. 

Oh tonight, it's so beautiful, feels so complete ,

just like some story painted fresh and with the right colored streaks..

This night is like every other night but still so anew, 

you being by my side, added an entirely different hue. 

I try looking into your eyes, wanting to know, 

if you could only but see what my eyes have been trying to show. 

You look back at me, with that same smile but there's something more to it, something masked well ,

behind that thick black veil but I could so surely tell... 

it hurts to know,

that even lying this close couldn't make it all go..

If it were up to me, I wouldn't let this night to end, would even befriend the moon , 

asking it to stay put for I had a smile to mend. 

I would have asked the stars to put up a show for you, 

would have danced over a song or two..Things I would have done, 

oh, if only you had a clue! 

But all you do is look at me and smile, 

like you know it all, , like you've walked down that aisle..

darn, the daylights returning and I will have to leave, 

but I will re visit you tonight so darling please, stay put and do not leave. 

Let's just kiss and promise me that you will miss,

 I will come back looking for you my love, for with you, lies my eternal bliss.

Self created prison.

It's past midnight and I am blinded by the sight,

I try to close my eyes,but the memories are just too bright.

I wish I could free my head ,of thoughts that just won't let me sleep..

If I could just let it all go and take one giant leap..

If  mommy could just kiss me goodnight

and whisper to me, darling, it's going to be alright!

If someone could wipe my tears away,

and sing to me how tomorrow would be a better day..

It's very cold tonight and it's lonely out here as well,

and even music can't save me, from the throes of my self created hell..

How lonely can one get???? Even my thoughts aren't mine!!!!

Can't fight the tears yet but, there's a smile saying I am doing fine.

Now I know silence can be so deafening ,

and how hollow it makes you inside when you alone are the one listening.

Now I know how nothing lasts forever,

people do change, even  when they promised they won't ever...

How inevitable a change is and the fear it brings,

and merely by words I can't explain, how deeply it stings.

How feelings go away, how memories fade away,

and how the people once part of you, leave and let you decay.

How something inside of you just almost died,

when your share of air,you were denied,

how big a void it left in you 

and how the world once bright , now turned so blue..

The night is coming to an end and it will be morning in a while,

I'd rather wipe my tears away for it's almost time to wear a smile.

I will be greeting the day like any other day, 

would even sing out loud like nothing can get in my way,

But when the day  will be done, and I will be all alone ,

my thoughts would still lead me to you and my heart would still moan..

The journey to me..

 As I sit by the window and let my life play the movie,

 I can't help but ponder, how far I have come along from the girl, I once  used to be.

Page by page as the chapters reveal,

I see myself fighting for the last breath, until I begin to heal.

There are chapters on sorrow where I let my heart to cry,

then there are chapters on love, where the inks never dry. 

There are chapters on promises broken when they were to be kept, 

angry words that were spoken when I should have wept. 

They narrate the story about a girl who yearned to fly , 

a girl who wanted to soar high. 

That tender age and all the rage,

that wanting to grow and all the haste...

with so much to want and so little to offer, 

the journey began with the past still haunting her and the future still daunting her. 

Some tagged along and made life simple, 

some left with a promise to return but with a voice too feeble.

And when the day had its cloak on and when the stars adorned the sky, 

she would sit by the window and still wonder why. 

Oh life seemed beautiful yet so incomplete ,

and there you go, a chapter on people who failed to meet. 

A chapter on summer love that ignited a spark long lost, forgotten 

and a chapter on bereavement ,which, with time got rotten. 

From a girl who knew nothing to a woman who lived it all, 

she came out strong with every fall. 

Love found her only to leave her alone , 

even before she realized , it was all gone. 

With a skinned heart that she wore up her sleeves, 

she wiped off a tear and decided to leave. 

The journey seemed long 

and with no one to walk along, 

the search began, 

to where she actually belonged.

Even though the pages are numbered, 

I don't know where they lead, 

for the end is a mystery that no one can read. 

                       I look in the mirror and what I see,

                                   that same little girl 

                                but who grew into me!