Often, I am told that I am "Indifferent".
Well, I say I am a WALLFLOWER. A FREE SPIRITED WALLFLOWER ,OBLIVIOUS TO THE WORLD!
These few words sum me up just perfect. Now you may ask what or rather, who a WALLFLOWER is ?! A WALLFLOWER would be a person who see's things, keeps quiet about them and understands. Though I might seem indifferent,but I do see things and I understand them too, only that I choose thought to not participate in life. I am a woman of few words and I choose them wisely. I find the whole idea of talking quite redundant . Anyone can knit you a shawl of words and even before you can say Jack Robinson. I'd rather be a person who speaks by her gestures than a babbling baboon. I do speak, and the few who have the eye for it, actually know what I am talking about. For them, I am a storyteller and I talk them to sleep each night.
A FREE SPIRIT because I am free. Nothing holds me back. Nothing weighs me down. I revel in my freedom. Mr. Albert Camus very rightly said, "The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion." One can't help but WOW at that quote right?! I AM A FREE SPIRIT! The past has taught me that I can't be caged, can't be tamed. I am made to run wild. I fall, I hurt myself and quite often too. But then I get up, dust myself off and fly again. Sky is where I reside, it's where I belong. I love the vastness it offers.I love how infinite it is. I love the bird's eye view of the world from above, entirely different from the view down here.
OBLIVIOUS! I am OBLIVIOUS to such an extent that if it had a face, trust me, it would be mine!!!! It's much easier to not know things sometimes. My own happy~bubble surrounds me. That explains why a few also refer to me as SURREAL. I am told that life is not how I view it , that they know better . I say, I don't want the answers. I am here to live my life one day at a time. I know things appear different from the inside of a bubble but, let my bubble be! Amidst all the noise , I prefer putting my head under my pillow and let the quiet put things where they are supposed to be.
I can't be all that they want me to be. I can't be what I am not. But I can be the best of me , that's all I can offer and that's all that I got. In a world that's constantly trying to make me like the rest, I am thriving each day to be myself. No, I am not indifferent. I am a WALLFLOWER.
I wish you could swim
ReplyDeletelike the dolphins, like dolphins can swim
Though nothing, nothing will keep us together
We can beat them, for ever and ever.
Well this place is old
ReplyDeleteIt feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
lady, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think your death ,it must be killin' me
When God's peaceful bow appears,
ReplyDeletePainted on the watery cloud,
'Tis to dissipate yours fears,
Lest the earth should be overflowed.
'Tis an emblem too of grace,
Of my covenant love a sign.
Though the mountains leave their place,
Thou shalt be forever mine(nature)..